9:44 a.m. - 2005-03-31
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Boy, it’s been a long time since I rocked your boat! Lemmie onboard captain!!

Really, the past few days have been spent very privately lamenting the loss of Chevy
(Skully) from my world. I am forced to privately deal with these emotions because it is
unfair to express it in front of Jeff, as Skully publicly asserted himself as the bigger
rooster at Jeff’s expense many, many times. Before Skully passed, f I mentioned his name
around Jeff, a fight was about to pop off!!!

So anyway, I got new phone from Tmobile. Then I popped in my SIM card, 20(+)
messages from Skully were in my inbox. I had erased them from my previous phone, but
they apparently travels with the SIM card. The messages expressed sentiments such as
‘miss you already‘, ‘I wanna take you to lunch, wine bucket, kool spot me and you’, ‘hugs
and kisses, ‘you are so awesome’, and the like. I still haven’t erased them. Don’t know if I
can bring myself to.

Last night I dreamt we were at a bar talking and playing pool. I began taking pictures of
him and I remember thinking, ‘I have to take as many as I can before you leave’
I woke up crying.

Part of me feels like I shouldn’t be taking this so rough. I feel like it may be the WAY
that he died that has really gotten to me. My mind cannot rationalize that someone who
was so gentle with me and my body was so brutally beaten to death.

On a lighter note, Tomorrow, April 1st, is my birthday! Paul Oakenfold will be at M Bar
downtown and we have been invited to guest on the VIP list. We will probably roll
through if nothing else.

On 4/20 we are departing for San Diego. I am so totally stoked about that trip! And I
believe leaving on 4/20 is good luck. It will be my first trip to that part of California, and
I am looking forward to finding some new spots!! If you have any tips, feel free to drop
me a line.

Will try not to be so latent between entries!

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