2:54 p.m. - 2004-10-29
Boyfriend's Are Stupid
This breaking up business is a big load of bull. Just when I think we are going to Splitsville, USA and I have prepared myself mentally and emotionally for the axe to fall, Jeff decides that he still loves me and wants to work things out.
First he's being smothered, then he's concerned that I'm considering seeing someone else. I thought it was women who were never supposed to know what the hell they want. Why does he get the luxury of being a shit and I don't?
Today I sent him a text message letting him know that he can go ahead and move on....have his space. Just what he wanted, right?
A minute later he calls and asks what I'm doing tonight.
It's men like this that drive women to be deceptive. I know this because I'm considering picking up a man on the side as we speak.
I've met some really great ones.
Since my boyfriend was MIA, I agreed to spend time with someone who actually WANTED to spend time with me. We had an impromptu dinner/coffee date last night, and the new cutie, who incidentally is cuter and easier to talk to than Jeff, bought me a glass of wine, himself a cappuccino, and a huge piece of Empire Cafe's killer chocolate cake for us to share. Total brownie points....cake points....whatever.
Then, before the night was over, I met a bass playing law student who totally looks like he stepped out of Dead Poets Society (yum!) who asked for my email address and flashed me a killer smile. That was all within a 3 hour period.
So as you can see, they are lining up in abundance and I'm running out of excuses. 'I am in love with a man who is in love with me' used to be one of them, but that argument is becoming increasingly more difficult to argue.
He's fucking up....and I don't even think he knows it.

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